No. I'm SERIOUSLY eating stale cheez-its, drinking Miller high life and wondering if the hick boy named Brent, I picked up is going to return my call.
My body and mind are just helpless...I feel SO clouded. I'm just SOOO confused.
I can't even remember tha last time I was HOnestly confused.
Was I in like seventh grade, when I didn't know if the word hazardous had one 'z' or two????
Yes. That was it
THAT was the last time I was confused.
NOW I'm faced with my Father's Death.
*sniff* He's SO cool. He's just SO cool...why.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DOOOOOOOO.
I think I might lose my mind.
WHAT THE FUCK.
I sound LIKE a lunatic asshole...what am I going to do??
LEt's just be honest...
He's not going to see my wedding...
He's not going to see my babies...
HOW am I going to EVER accept that?
When is it going to be MY time to be happy?? How will I be happy without my Father in my life??
It's all I've ever wished for.
ANd NOw it's SOO relevant that I'll never get it...
WHAT KIND OF SICK JOKE IS THISSSSS!!!!
WHAT HAVE I DONEEEE!!!!!!
3:17 AM - Sunday, Oct. 10, 2004
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